I’m not able to leap tall buildings in a single bound, nor
am I more powerful than a speeding locomotive.
But today I’m able to feel a real satisfaction from taking the small
actions in life. I could say that I’m
still trying to leap those buildings, but that would be a lie. What I am doing is trying to enjoy staying in
the now.
For me, it’s too easy to be a grumph. Perhaps it’s genetic. Perhaps it’s part of being an alcoholic. There I was in a chilly, windy carwash
standing on my head. That’s what it
feels like to bend over and do something in that position for half an hour. I was doing an essential job. I was being useful. I couldn’t breathe. I was physically uncomfortable, and I was
unhappy. I didn’t say a word either.
When I was done spraying those grills with Easy-Off Oven
Cleaner, I felt real satisfaction in what I’d done.
We went out to dinner last night, and I felt the
conversation with the husband was a truly awkward thing. I who used a glass of wine as a social
lubricant, felt uncomfortable in the long silences with a person I didn’t know
well. Then again, I felt real
satisfaction in going out to be social with new people.
Obviously I need to put myself in these uncomfortable
positions more often. Stretch
myself. Poke myself in the ribs, so to
speak. Get myself out of my shell and
learn to be social again.
I feel real satisfaction
A clean grill is a happy grill
ReplyDeleteWhat black-tie gala?? Do tell.
ReplyDeleteThank you for this reminder that difficult/unpleasant things are worth doing. We are about to face five consecutive days of 100 F+ heat. I have several social commitments (visitors) which I'd usually enjoy, but my grumpy mind woke up this morning saying "Why can't these people wait till the heat has passed?!" You've nudged me towards a new perspective.
ReplyDeleteSometimes people just do not click...it is an odd scene and no one's, or at least not your fault.
ReplyDeleteGood for you, Mage. I remember those uncomfortable times too. I don't like to put myself in them, but yes... sometimes it's good to stretch yourself.
ReplyDeleteOops! Our grill needs to be cleaned too.
I'm a great believer in self discipline but there has to be a balance. We have to remember to be kind to oneself as well. I trust your judgement.
ReplyDeleteAs for grumps- I can snarl for England:)